As I Say My Goodbyes

Saturday, January 12, 2013

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I remembered that time when I saw those posts on Facebook.
I mean, you got so mad about my tweets but at least my Twitter is private. I know exactly who has access to my tweets and I actually know who bothers to read them.
Fine, I guess I deserved to know what it feels like for the person you care a lot about (I'm not even going to bother saying love) to post something negative about you/your relationship for others to see but at least mine was relatively private and relatively discreet ('it's like you don't even care' could easily refer to a friend or a family member, no?)
You posted one on FACEBOOK that was clearly about a relationship. Everyone on Facebook who saw that post would know the state of our relationship. And you have a lot of friends. They will read that shit. And Facebook is where you scroll and see all these pictures and pictures with words. That's what people do. So yours was one of those on people's newsfeeds who set it to 'most recent'.
These people aren't even all close to you. You don't know who read it.
The worst part is that Foundation people would've seen it. People we both know. At least on Twitter, I can count on one hand how many people actually bother to read my tweets and less still how many really feel anything when reading those tweets. 90% it's like 'oh ok scroll' or 'I relate to that. Scroll.'
You got upset because my closest friends could read it? Well damn, that must be much worse than closest friends + close friends + friends + FAMILY + classmates/schoolmates/colleagues/MUTUAL friends + old friends you never speak to anymore + acquaintances. YA?
And my tweets didn't sum up the state of our relationship. They were things that we could've gotten over and been fine after which. Your post pretty much summed things up, showing every person you have on Facebook that you were unhappy in your relationship (did I mention the Foundation people who know both of us????).
So thanks.
Maybe I deserved it.
But thanks. Really, that really hurt and humiliated me.

And just so you know, I do have friends who still love what we had. One of them said she was hoping we'd get married cos we were just the cutest together and she loved us together.
Shame that her OTP didn't work out.

Labels: rant

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