As I Say My Goodbyes

Friday, December 19, 2014

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Everything will wear off in time, and you'll come to see that I'm really quite worthless.

I'm hanging by a thread|10:23 PM|

Monday, December 15, 2014

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I serve nothing more than the purpose assigned to me by the people around me. The purpose that they decide is fit for me in relation to themselves. Anything else I have to offer is irrelevant. Aside from the specific purpose, I have no value.

I'm hanging by a thread|12:57 AM|

Sunday, December 14, 2014

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I'm running on empty and I can't catch a break.
I have nobody to talk to.

I'm hanging by a thread|11:40 PM|

Saturday, December 13, 2014

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I don't want to feel what I feel.
What if this is what I think it is? Setting my own traps, digging my own graves. Just because I don't believe I deserve any better. Fuck shit up for myself when I find that this is too good for me.

I'm hanging by a thread|12:43 AM|

Friday, December 12, 2014

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Yet another day spent in the depths of my mind, wishing desperately for the words I fail to find.
But sometimes, words are not necessary. There are feelings and intentions not meant to be known. Like when you do something for someone else, and they don't even need to know it was you for you to feel good because all you wanted was to see them happy. Or when you worry about someone and pray for them nightly before you go to sleep, they don't need to know. And sometimes these private thoughts and feelings escape, because your foremost thoughts control what you do. Even then, it can feel like it's still not necessary to explain unless it's something they need to hear.
Sacrifices made in private are the most sincere. It's done from an inward principle, not for the other to know what you've done for them that did not benefit yourself. I think these are the ones that mean the most, and if the other cares enough they will know - you'll never have to say a word.

I'm hanging by a thread|4:59 AM|

Thursday, December 04, 2014

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There is much danger in a certain level of comfort and feeling of security.
You're never as secure as you think you are.

I'm hanging by a thread|12:41 AM|