As I Say My Goodbyes

Thursday, May 29, 2014

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No one cares enough to bend over backwards for me, the way I have done or would do for them.

And the ones whom I think just might, are the ones who would do it thinking I'm childish or immature.

I'm hanging by a thread|4:36 AM|

Thursday, May 22, 2014

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Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence
And leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage
Again...

So if you love me, let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there

Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone, I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change, I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savour every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear
I think I made it very clear
You couldn't hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
My own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go
So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul

You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away, you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control

My love was punished long ago
If you still care, don't ever let me know
If you still care, don't ever let me know

I'm hanging by a thread|2:05 AM|

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Drenched in my pain again.

I'm hanging by a thread|1:41 AM|

Monday, May 19, 2014

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I was raised from a broken seed
I grew up to be an unwanted weed
Ever faster the time exceeds me
Little harder again to remember you

Held a torch for you when lightning struck me
Once again, hope I died for the last time
Only one I have a thing greater than you
Little light on the sky every night

Morning dew on the field where I met you
I was frozen a year, couldn't get through
Got a sign - not a scar - on my shoulder
I am not quite the man you take me for

Fell in love with the weakness within me
Tried to force me the Ring and own me
Guess you've found what you'd think would oblige me
Little version of me to consume you

I'd give my everything to you

Follow you through the garden of oblivion

If only I could tell you everything

The little things you'd never dare to ask me

Do you really know me? (I might be a God)

Show me that you care, have a cry

How do you see me? (As the one?)

Can you see my blood when I'm bleeding?

How can you love this exile?

And how could I desire you when my pain is my pain, and yours is, too?

On this dead winter's night

Darkness becomes this child

Bless this night with a tear

For I have none I fear

Seven lives of a man passed before me

Seven graves - one for every love I've had

Only once I have broken my so-called heart

Only one made me see why they cry

Will I learn how to be one of you someday?

Will I still feel the eyes that behold me?

Will I hear what you think when you see me?

Will it tear me apart if you feel for me?

I'd give my everything to you

Follow you through the garden of oblivion

If only I could tell you everything

The little things you'd never dare to ask me

Do you really know me? (I might be a God)

Show me that you care, have a cry

How do you see me? (As the one?)

Can you see my blood when I'm bleeding

How can you love this exile?

And how could I desire you when my pain is my pain, and yours is, too?

On this dead winter's night

Darkness becomes this child

Bless this night with a tear

For I have none I fear

A little broken, always been

A part of you belongs to me

You were never mine to love

But this all has made it easy for me

Burning feathers, not an angel

Heaven's closed, Hell's sold out

So I walk on the earth, behind the curtains

Hidden from everyone

Until I find a new life to ruin again

On this dead winter's night

Darkness becomes this child

Bless this night with a tear

For I have none I fear

I'm hanging by a thread|4:13 PM|

Saturday, May 03, 2014

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The cheese platter effect.

I'm hanging by a thread|5:17 AM|