Wednesday, July 25, 2012

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I miss you so much. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm so frikkin in love with you, this separation is driving me out of my mind. All I have to go on is the hope that you'll realise you're still in love with me, and that we were just going through a really rough patch. That we can work together in the future to make sure it doesn't happen again.
My arms ache for you. I could hold you forever.
I have so many questions, so many things I don't understand about what had been happening. And of course I have my doubts on how you feel about me... And I think I will for a while. But I do trust that you wouldn't lie to yourself and be with me if you aren't in love with me.
Still... I can only hope. Hope you'll sort your confusion, and understand your feelings. And that you'll realise you're still in love with me. You just need to clear your mind and focus on feeling.

I'm hanging by a thread|6:30 PM|

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

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We were in a cycle. I tried to break the cycle I felt we were in. The cycle you felt we were in was different but you didn't try to break it. You just let it fester. It seems like you were just waiting for it to be bad so you had an excuse to get out. You already wanted to leave, you were just looking for an opportunity.
Obviously I am not worth enough to you to fight for. When things get really hard, you just walk away and leave me hanging. You don't or didn't love me enough to face impending conflict in order to make things better. Either you lied to me about why, like all the others, or you just weren't in love (anymore).

I'm hanging by a thread|2:24 PM|

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I honestly don't think you can fault me very much for not fixing something I didn't even know was happening. They're called blind spots. For others to point out to you. Of course, now that I know I am so sorry idek how to put it into words. But I still stand by the fact that I couldn't change what I didn't know needed changing.

I'm hanging by a thread|8:19 AM|

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If you don't want to see me often, if you don't want to talk to me every day, you don't love me. Don't tell me that you love me when you know it isn't true. Maybe you've simply fallen out of love, but don't give me that false hope of something in the future.
If you couldn't bring yourself to talk about what was wrong, what makes you think that will change next time? It's already clear from the fact that you chose tossing me out over going through the trouble to fix us.

I'm hanging by a thread|7:32 AM|

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You said you needed me.
I guess you got tired of me and already decided a break would be better than talking things out.
That's when you stopped needing me.

I'm hanging by a thread|1:48 AM|

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You made my life so much better. I can't be more sorry that I took you for granted. I don't deserve you.

I had always put myself down because I believed that if I were to be secure and comfortable with someone, I would go bad. Unfortunately, it seems that I was so very right. To function as a good human being, I have to have low self worth and treat everyone like they may walk away anytime. Well, they can. It's true.

But honestly, if you really loved me enough, you'd want us to last. If you really wanted us to last, you would've done anything you could to make things better. You would tell me what I was doing wrong. So I can try to be better. By that logic, you were already comfortable with leaving me.

I'm hanging by a thread|12:28 AM|

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