As I Say My Goodbyes

Saturday, May 31, 2008

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Excluding this post, I have 16 to go. Including this post, I have 15 to go. :/

Sorry bloggy for not giving you the tlc that you need. =(

HELLO =)
Right at this moment I am happy. Because the people online are people who don't tell me things I don't need to know and there's nothing right now making me unhappy unless I think of all the crap but I shall keep this mood. =)

Oh I wonder when I started using so many smileys/non-smileys.

:/

HEY HEY
;D

LOL.

Muahahahaahahahaha.

I shall go find quizzes to put here. Hmmmmmm.....
FRIENDSTER! =DD

Wow, Jake again. Waahhaa.

Honestly what color is your shirt?

Blue

Honestly, whats on your mind?

Things. A lot of things. SUCH A QUESTION! >=( MAKE ME THINK.

Honestly, what have u done yesterday?

What have I done, sounds wrong.
I went to Tiffany's house. Technically yesterday was Saturday so I sat around at home and skipped dance night. :/

Honestly, have you ever been in love?

I guess?? Idk.

Honestly, feeling anything unusual today?

ALWAYS AND EVERYDAY.

Honestly, is your heart still occupied?

Of course! But the person doesn't know. O.O

Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the fone?

Simone.

Honestly , are you jealous of somebody right now?

-.- I've always been since ahem.. Not telling since when.

Honestly, what makes you sad most of the time?

Some people, some things. Sigh.

Honestly, are you LOVING someone right now?

I suppose?

Honestly ,what are the things you don't want in life?

Failure in exams which result in all the less care and love from family. -.- must results be EVERYTHING?

Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?

Yeah.

Honestly, any plannings in near future?

Uh...
BEIJING! <3

Honestly, do you love someone very much?

You could say 'like'. It'll sound less immense. But I could say yes?

Honestly, does anyone like you?

Haha I don't know. I don't think so.

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY

What do you do when you're mad?

I blog. I always blog. I blog and blog and blog. If I'm pissed enough, it overwhelms me and I cry. -.- Yes I'm weak.

What's the worst things you've done when you were mad?

Lalala~ Ms Teo Peng Suan knows. Lalala~

Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?

HAHA No. The people I've been mad at are those types of people who get mad because I'm mad. -.- Effing childish.

Do you curse when you're mad?

Who doesn't?

When was the last time you really cried?

Lalala~

Ever cried yourself to sleep?

Lalala~

What usually makes you cry?

Lalala~

Are you normally a happy person?

Um, from 'feedback' not really. And I don't think so either.

Does being with your friends makes you happy?

Which friends? The real ones or the fake ones?

When people say they think you are pretty...

I automatically think they're lying. I either laugh or thank.

OK done!

I'm hanging by a thread|11:27 PM|

Thursday, May 29, 2008

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I got this from Nicole's blog. ;D

1) Has a miracle happened to you before?
Uh, I don't think so?

2) What is the thing that you want most now?
Seniors to leave satisfied, happy, and loved&loving.

3) Who makes you feel happy?
Seniors, friends, juniors... NO not family >=/

4) If you have one more wish to wish for , what would it be?
Happy seniors, I beg the Lord.

5) What are you afraid to lose most now?
The friendships I have so carefully built that seem to be evaporating...

6) Do you believe in ETERNAL love?
Was that supposed to apply to a mother? Cos if so, then NO DAMMIT NO.

7) If you meet someone you love a lot, would you confess to him/her?
Haha Been there done that, not confessing ever.

8) What would you do with 200 bucks?
I'd donate, save and then spend the rest on things I feel like having at the moment.

9) What is currently in your mind?
Ignoring question~

10) What type of people do you despise most?
I shan't say. My description will be oh too long. ;D

11) Would you cherish every friendship of yours?
Yes

12) Do you believe in GOD?
Eh

13) What're 2 most important things in your life?
Percussion, Friends

14) Do you believe in true love?
Maybe

15) What do you want your friendship to be like?
Too long a description.

16) If given a chance, would you get back with your ex?
NA

17) What're your 3 favourite hobbies?
lalala~

18) If you're feeling low one day, who/where would you go to?
I'd kill myself? no I'd keep to myself.

19) Who would you spend your last day on Earth with?
Her. Or you if you're reading this.

20) If you have the permission to destroy something, what/who would it be?
MY MOTHER. Oops

I'm hanging by a thread|2:53 AM|

Friday, May 23, 2008

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GOODBYE
THIS COULD BE MY LAST POST

OR I AM OVERREACTING
BUT EITHER WAY
I ADMIT I AM DRAMATIC

GOODBYE. :'(
MOTHER BEING CALLED BY GRANDMOTHER NOW THAT'S WHY. SAD RIGHT. GOODBYE FAREWELL I WILL MISS EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING. :/

And and and. I will miss my baby bloggy.

I'm hanging by a thread|10:14 PM|

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AH.

I used to have the longing to hear what was in your heart but now it seems I'm over the fear of this falling apart.
I'm letting it go now.
Switched off, switched on. I'm letting you know, you turned out the light. I'm gonna be alright without.......
There are the words to describe all your offences. You are formally rejected from the one you hurt. You're just another face in the crowd...

Goodbye...
If she doesn't take away the laptop then actually that would just be stupid even though I would prefer a stupid decision...

And this terrible thought I just had that only Tiffany knows about.
It was supposed to make me burst out in tears wasn't it? I mean, any normal person would.
But I didn't....
Does that mean I do not love.

I only shed a countable number of tears. And that was it. But the thought still remains.
I can't believe this is happening.

And

I've seen the Vice principal before. Of the Primary school.
In P4...
For the whole em3 thing and oh my eff it was torture.
And now it will repeat itself but ten times worse because it's the effing principal.

So then I can say that I've been sent to head office twice. :/
Oh Lord please do save me.
But why would you?
I deserve it.
I deserve to be skinned alive and I deserve everything I'm getting now, don't I? Even if I'm sorry for it?
But the thing is... I don't feel sorry.
I'm sorry 93%
The other 7% is some other feeling... Non apologetic.
Oh how could this be happening to me.

I'm hanging by a thread|2:00 PM|

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I don't wanna see you! RAH!

No one will care what happens to me luh.

SORRY BLOGGY.
I've been depriving you of nice long posts... <3

I will feed you at the beginning of June.

WTF OK anyone reading this will think I'm weird.

Which, if I may say so, I am.

HARHAR.

I was reading my older posts. History, literally. I mean... Really.

So different, then and now.

Ah. I'll go now. I love my blogger bloggy. <3
I love Tiffany too!<3 hahahha

I'm hanging by a thread|12:57 AM|

Thursday, May 22, 2008

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I'm effing sleepy now but this lovely blog need tlc. <3

[ ] Had a referral.

[ ] Been given a detention.

[x] Got your cell phone taken away.

[ ] Been suspended.

[x] Chewed gum during class.

TOTAL: 2

[x] Been late to a class more than 10

times.

[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.

[x] Returned at least 5 projects/assign

in late.

[x] Missed school cause you felt like

it.

[x] Skipped class at least 3 times.

[ ] Laughed so hard you got kicked out

of class.

TOTAL: 5

[ ] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you

out of school.

[x] Texted people during class.

[x] Passed notes.

[x] Threw stuff across the room.

[x] Laughed at the teacher.

TOTAL: 4

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.

[x] Went on myspace; friendster;

xanga; etc on the computer at school.

[x] Took pictures during class hours.

[x] Called someone during

class hours.

[x] Listened to an ipod/cd player/mp3

during class.

[ ] Hit a teacher with a

textbook.

TOTAL: 4

[x] Threw something at the teacher.

[x] Went outside the classroom without

permission.

[x] Broke the dress code.

[x] Ate food during class.

TOTAL: 4

[x] Got a call home.

[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause

you behaved bad.

[x] Didn't take your stuff to school.

[ ] Been given a detention and didn't

go.

[ ] Used passes from other days or

made fake pass.

[x] Cursed during class loud enough so

the teacher could hear.

TOTAL: 3

[x] Slept in class.

[x] Threw paper balls at the teacher.

[ ] Threatened a teacher.

[ ] Felt hungry during class and went

home to eat.

[x] Treated the teacher as invisible

TOTAL: 3

OVERALL TOTAL: 25

Multiply your overall total by 3...

25x3= 75

I am 75% hated by teachers.
O.O
I believe I am hated far more than that.

I'm hanging by a thread|2:24 AM|

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

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OK, shit title I know.

I need to keep my Blogger blog alive. O.O

ahhh
I'm gonna repeat again and again. If you're sick of it then don't read.

*wah shit sekali mother reads my lj she's gonna throw me out the window and watch me fall and die*

Find your heart, open up both your eyes.
We can all know everything, without ever knowing why. I lie awake while the rest of the world sleeps happily. I'm tossing and turning in the dark.
I'd go back in time if I could, erase you from my mind for good.
I get so tired of trying. Maybe I should just fly away, let my heart pretend. My dream comes true and the story ends. With everything that I'm made of, I say goodbye to all we've been through... Forget I ever knew you.
I've nothing to say, but I'll start writing anyway.
Picking up the pieces makes me wonder if I only build it all to watch it fall.

FORGET IT. I don't want to ponder over these wounds that ain't gonna heal.

I'm hanging by a thread|9:02 PM|

Monday, May 19, 2008

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QUIZ/SURVEY SHIT AGAIN.
I'm impulsive OK?
:/
OH I always give the link don't I? My LJ.

1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirty

Single.

2) Are you happy with that?

No.

3) Would you still kiss your ex?

Don't have one.

4 ) Have you ever had your heart

broken?

Yes.

5) Do you believe that there are

certain circumstances where cheating

is ok?

Not really.

7) Have you ever talked about marriage

HAHA

8) Do you want children?

Maybe. See how.

9 ) How Many?

SEE HOW. Five. hich hich hich.

10) Would you consider abortion?

NEVER. It's cruel.

11) If someone liked you right now,

would you want them to tell you?

Um why would someone like me. And yes.

12) Do you want someone you can't

have?

Yesssssssss.

13 ) Have you fallen in love?

I suppose so.

14) Do you believe in celebrating

anniversaries?

Yes.

15) Do you believe that you can change

for someone?

Yes.

16) Is it a good day today?

No. Yes. Half half. Somewhat.

17) Have you ever broken a heart

before?

I guess so.

18 ) Does your ex still have feelings

for you?

I don't have one.

19) Do you still have feelings for

them?

Don't have one/any.

20)You wish to have a bf/gf for now?

Depends, who?

21)what now you wish for?

Beautiful. <3

22)if you have bf/gf now...do you

really love them?

I don't have one.

FREAKIE.

another shit.

1. What is your full name?

Shannen Kang.. I'm stopping there.

2. Where are you schooling?

CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh)

3. Working?

No.

4. What time is it right now?

6.23AM

5. What's the weather at your side?

No.

6. What are you doing?

Doing this. Listening to music.

7. Not going out today?

No.

8. Have you eaten?

No? Idk. I was awake the whole night. Eaten what?

9. What currently are you doing in life right now?

Supposedly studying. But I'm messing up my existence. That's what I'm really doing.

10. What song are you listening to?

CLAY Aiken.

11. Do you miss somebody?

Yes.

12. What is he/she to you?

Shhhhhh

13. Where's your parents?

One is at home and the other Idk probably at home.

14. Siblings?

Home or out idk.

15. Ever watch Newport Harbor?

No.

16. Who's your best-friend?

Tiffany Jake and more people but you see you asked best friend so I should only name one. :O Tiffany! <3

17. How much they mean to you?

Never ending much. Doesn't make sense but you get the point.

18. Where do you wish you want to be right very now?

With someone.

19. How's your bedroom looked like?

Uh like a room? I HAVE PEEKTURES

20. What's your mood?

Meh

21. When's the last time you gone shopping?

Is today counted?

22. Ever wanting something new?

YES.

23. What are you looking forward to next?

idk. BeiJing I suppose.

24. Plans for that day?

25. How are you feeling?

Didn't you just ask that.

26. Starbucks or CoffeeBean?

COFFEE BEAN AND TEA LEAF FOREVER

27. Mcdonalds, KFC or PizzaHut?

Hmmm close fight.

28. What's your favourite restaurant?

Idk

29. What's your person's like?

I don't even know myself you expect me to answer that.

30. Does any of your ex boyfriend still loves you?

Don't have one.

34. Do you like somebody?

Yes.

35. List 5 favourite things you love to do:

BLOG

Compute

Percussion

Shop, providing I have the $$

BLOGGING again...

36. List 5 favourite person.

Tiffany
Jake
Seniors, I count that as one.

Val K I guess

Hmmmmmmm

37. Who are they to you?

Close friends, seniors.

38. Are you tired?

I should be. But I'm not.

39. What do you think about Britney Spears?

Um A bit insane, needs help. but not bad.

41. Does anything bothering you?

Duh. YOU ARE. but there are other things.

46. What do you see in guys/girls these days?

I need not answer that.

47. What do you think about your opposite sex?

Wrong word. Tsk. I'm not answering that question because I don't have one.

49. Do you blindfold yourself?

WTF for what.

50. Where do you stay?

Tapmines, near changi? Or pasir ris.

55. Are you a bad boy/girl?

Girl.

56. Ever cheated on somebody?

No.

57. Are you rich?

I WISH.

58. Okay seriously, what's your mood right now?

You're annoying me slowly. -.-

59. When's your last tear?

Not answering that.

60. What do you crave for right now?

A human LOL no no no um nothing.

I'm hanging by a thread|6:17 AM|