As I Say My Goodbyes

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

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i have a really good friend
she is very nice girl
much taller than me obviously
so sad
next year she will be in another school
i shan't say which school

i don't exactly specifically know either
but she has been pretty nice to me this year
and i appreciate it
i hope i don't cry tomorrow
waaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!
whoopsy
haha

i only met her this year
but i feel like i've known her for forever
but still not knowing much about her
i WILL miss her
i hope she knows that
this is here because tomorrow is the last day of shool
and i may not see certain classmates anymore
if i'm not wrong, one of my classmates did well enough to (maybe) go to express next year

my dear dear friend
so close
in such a few months
usually i can be pretty heartless
go don't go i don't care
i guess i am guilty of taking friendships for granted
and then when *poof*dissappear
i feel bad and ungrateful
and wish i had shown much friendly love

certain 'friends' of course
their dissappearance doesn't affect me at all but this one does
sinks deep right down to the bottom
the bottom of my heart
yupp
i am gonna miss her
just like if jolene were to go away one fine day (hopefully not)

she is obviously not aware of all of this
we aren't exactly very c;ose to each other
kind of just friends

but better than others

i'm just one of her many friends
and she has alot of things better to do than hng around with a shorty

but to me she's a really good friend

I'm hanging by a thread|9:29 PM|

Monday, October 16, 2006

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today i got my results back
english history and science
i passed english and science
i failed history
but only by 5 marks
and i did my best
knd of
english-63.5
history-45
science-60

i hate science
i hate history
i mean, why couldn't it be herstory
or cavewomen
and even if there are girls in the army the orders will always be "men..blahblah"
it couldn't even be "men and ladies blahblahblah"

yeah i don't make a very good point but i still think it's not fair
the worst thing is that i get to keep my papers so all my past failures will rear their ugly conjoined heads ten years from now
ugh
especially chinese
i never once passed-EVER
since p2

there was once i even got a 17 upon a hundred
and then there was this year's SA1 and i almost passed.....just those two marks and i would have hit the roof.....in a good way
and i would be on my way to china during the december hols

but even if i DID pass, i wouldn't get to go for long cuz i am in the band and i have practices 3 to 4 times a week
tough
but expected
anw, on my actual birthday itself....i have practice 12-6
harsh right but from the 10th to the 27th i am freeeeee...........5,6,7,8, consecutive days.........of practise
for the performance on the 9th
i hope GOD gives me an extremely good gift by granting a good performance
hahahahahahahahaha
and then there's band camp
but then i know myself well and on the syf day itself i will be curled up on the floor
wishing i had been so bad at being a percussionist that i didn't get through
that would be then and this is now
but even though i will be unbelievably nervous....it's worth a shot
and not just a shot
a gold-winning shot
hopefully
heyyy....i just inspired myself
lame yeah i know
but i did
i'm gonna go practise right now

au revoir

I'm hanging by a thread|6:25 PM|

Thursday, October 12, 2006

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i got my phone stolen
gone and back all in one day
i lost it in the morning and got it back at night
it was a saturday
about 2weeks ago
i went downstairs for a while and left my phone downstairs when i went back up
when i reaized, i went back downstairs it was gone
i didn't dare to tell my mother so "nothing was wrong"
then like 7 people were text messaged
while my phone was not in my possesion

the messages were disgusting

2 people were not in my phonebook, i think they were random numbers

but i found that oout at night when i returned home after a long day....i found the phone back were i lost it that morning
then i read my inbox and outbox
the messages in my outbox were gross to the max
i think it was supposedly some sort of form of prank
to blacklist my phone number on my friends' phones

ooooohh..if i find that person, i will kill that person

I'm hanging by a thread|10:42 PM|