As I Say My Goodbyes

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

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okay, yesterday...don't wanna talk bout it...today...BORING.the next few days, i predict bore

usually i would funnily say boringness but i'm not very happy today.

personal reason within the multiple walls of my house and my best friend

oh welll...

i also predict the worst holiday of my life...maybe there will be worse to come but so far...

I'm hanging by a thread|7:26 PM|

Monday, May 29, 2006

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oh my god...

oh yeah, i missed yesterday yah...i watched mission impossible and then blah blah

okay so today i woke up so freakin' early...then my mom sent me to school and i went for band practice and i had to play 'solo' abit...very scary man

so then i bought a Crunchie bar and ate it on the way home...

yummm

then i went home blah

nothing much to say
life is such a bore

well...have a nice day

the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog

I'm hanging by a thread|10:23 PM|

Saturday, May 27, 2006

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ohhhh, i still can't get over clay's hair man

eeeeeeeeeeekkkkk

well, anyway, today was kinda couch-potato-y

i woke uo and headed for the tv(seeing that my mother got to the com first) and i watched lotsa tv....show after show after show, then my mum came home with lunch...KFC and Burger king!!!

yummm, because of my braces, i had to tear the meat of the drumstick with my fingers and a fork(i need at least one free-of-oil hand)...as we ate, we watched a dvd from video ezy, it was called 'into the blue'

it was about 4people who found a ship called Zephyr...and it was worth lots of money and was loaded with pure gold...and of course..dead bodies along with the sunken ship-DUH

so then blahblah, got threatened..blahblah, one girl got a huge shark bite on the back of her thigh and died despite being brought to a hospital and her boyfriend was still thinking of the treasure(what a shallow jack-ass)

and then blahblah...happy ending...you should really watch it, he first few parts are lame humour then a little romance and 'shhhhh' suspicion kicks in, then nearing the end there's lotsa action...

yeah, then(oh, i better go soon) after that i went to the com.....watched a little more tv, back to the com and there i was the whole day until dinner then we had dinner and watched this show on tv called firestorm..boring but yet abit interesting..i gave up and played com halfway...

well, i'm all alone outside all the rooms now..no noise...

whoa, i really gotta get off, bye

I'm hanging by a thread|11:17 PM|

Friday, May 26, 2006

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hello all!!!

how was the american idol finale??
i loved it except for the bit when cat didn't win...it's not that i have anything against taylor, it's just that i made a bet and i lost

oh well, i didn't bet anything...i just said"betcha cat will win"

so i don't lose any of what i have

anyway, today was my school'a FOUNDER'S DAY!!!!

we finally had mass together with the primary school which was what the school wanted for a very long timebut the only problem was that at the different times, the primary school got the sun and the secondary school got the sun, at least the sec school got less of the sun..hahaha

so we were celebrating the founding of the school and all that...

then jolene and meghan started playing..weird those two really

so then after mass, we proceeded to class and had spring cleaning thingy

oh andi left my phone under a cupboard(i dropped it by accidnt)so i had to use jolene's phone the whole time...

yah so...then i called my friend after going thru a horribly troublesome hassle to get her number she said that she couldn't wait for me(she's in p5)so she went home with another friend
evilll...

so i went home all by my lonesome lonesome self..haha
not really, i go home solo everyday unless my friend's mum is bringing me home...

oh and the braces are still sore...SORE!!!!!!!!

i can bearly eat anything but i will get used to it when my teeth get used to it which will be in a few days then everything will be back to normal...

yah so i wanted to buy chocolate but then i remembered my braces...i almost moaned in complaint but i decided to buy a slurpee instead...

i still can't believe clay's hair is so different

it's so different that the whole person looks extremely different...AND SO BOYISHLY CUTE!!!!!!!!!!

oh my god i'm still squealing.

oh you know now i'm suddenly feeling so sleepy...

must've been muy friend's hypnotising this morning...but it's abit late don't you think?

de voz enfants, ecoucez la pierre

or something like that la

i might and might not post another one today..

ciao

I'm hanging by a thread|12:00 PM|

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woke up blah blah went to school blah blah, we had enrichment classes in chinese and we learnt how to make those dragonfly hanging thingys, bak chang and we painted big wooden spoons!!

then after that i went home and then i went to the com to play some music and i clicked mozilla firefox by accident(cuz i'm so used to it) then i saw...taylor hicks wins american idol!! and Prince makes surprise appearance!!

coooool

so then i went on with blah

then i waited for my tuition teacher to come and she didn't so at about 5.30 i called her but it just went "beeep..beeep" so i hung up and did a little revision for chinese and then after bla blah, my mum came home and we talked and she lectured and then somehow the subject changed from studies to clay aiken...she said "you know on television without pity, everyone was like'oh my god! his hair' and i was thinking'yes!? what about his hair??quick! !!!" then we both laughed and we watched the finale up to just after the clay part...
the clay part: he came out inthe middle of the best imitation guy's song and waited for him to notice and then when he did, clay had to quickly start singing, my mother and i were like"OH MY GOD HIS HAIR!!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you probably wanna know...waht about his hair, most of you should have seen the finals so...

ok, then we quickly rushed to the dentist because i was already abit late

so i got into the "death seat" and leaned back...

the dentist re-wired my braces and she put in a thicker wire but before that i got choose new colours for my braces!!
i chose half orange and half green..

oooh, the pressure....

can die but i beared with it..

after that they were so so so so so sore!!!

i can't even talk properly without hurting myself...owwwwwwwwww

I'm hanging by a thread|11:41 AM|

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

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hmm

hiya people out there

how ya foing
that was redundant, considering i have no idea who most of you are

so i woke up, washed up, went to school, after assembly we went up to the rooftop netball courts and had netball matches and jolene and i were the scorers for about three games.some classes are really good and some classes are really bad...

so after that i kinda hung out with sharon ong and we talked in one corner and then we went down to have a bite, i had a "bowl" of macaroni and a cup of milo dinosaur

then melina came along and said that the mass dance was starting soon and i freaked, but sharon told me to relax and we slacked there for a few minutes and then we slowly made our way up....

then sharon sat down don't know where somewhere else then

i sat next to chelsea and asked her to teach me the dance and i kind of got it and when we actually went up to dance i forgot and everybody was moving so fast, i think my class was the worst cept for chelsea and sacha cuz they are the bast dancers in the whole class and they created the dances

1/6 performance was awesome, i really think they should've won, but 1/3 won instead of them, but at least they came in second...oh wait, or was it 1/4 that won, i can't remember really

anyway, i really liked 1/6's dance and i thought it was the best and it was smooth

anyway, after school, jolene, sharon and i went to this kiddy palace place because jolene wanted to buy some sort of bear, then she went home and i went to sharons house then i came home and then i did stuff, then i ate my dinner then i ate two mini cccccooooonetttttooooooeeesssssssssssss$$$

then i watched the finale of american idol, i think catherine will win...
we shall wait and see

I'm hanging by a thread|8:39 PM|

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

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welll......i know it's abit early but i have nothing else better to do..
oh aboout the pic...forgot all about it now i can't find in the 'my documents' part...sad right.

oh well

mmmmmm...woke up at about 9.30am and watched tv and read the newspaper comics then ate mah breakfast and watched somemore tv then i went to bathe and brush my teeth and all that and blah blah blah

then i ate my lunch-macaroni and creamed corn- and left for school...when i boarded the bus meeting jolene was the last thing i expected..but i did

so i said hi and we sat together then when we reached the bus stop opposite our school, susy walked halfway across the road then said bye and wlked back...stupid idea but really funny

so we went to this shop that sold nice stuff and jo and i bought ice longan with pearls i think she's too afraid to admit it but i think jo actually likes the pearls but doesn't wanna say so cuz she kept saying she hated them before i made her try them again...cuz she would always order 'with pearls'

anyway....so we went all over the school and we couldn't find anyone we were half an hour early anyway, so we were walking around and i dropped my phone somewhere near the staircase and we looked for it from 11am to 1pm that was supposed to be when our mass dance practice ended but we went to class anyway and then everyone more or less knew what to do already so we were like 'uuuuuhhhhhhhhh"
like total blurrrrr queens..

but we asked somone to teach us and now i only know half the moves and i'm not even sure of them yet...i guess my only hope is to learn all tomorrow morning if i don't want to make a fool of myself tomorrow in front of the whole school...sec1's are the youngest and i don't wanna go through 5 years of humiliation...

so it's a really stupid dance but...it's compulsary for the whole class to dance so i have no choice...

okay, so then afterward, we went to 7 eleven and bought 2 mr softees and got a free pen...cute pen really

we sat at the bus stop for a while and ate then we took turns playing this certain hp game then jo's mum msged her and she had to go so i threw my ice-cream away and slowly walked back to school when i reached the back gate these pri school kids were laughing and said that the gate was locked and i think they were laughing AT me..stupid bloody bitches i hope they go to hell and die a horrible and slow death for being ass-holes

anyway, so i 'grrr'ed and walked to the side gate and i saw them right outside it too..i purposely "bumped" into the nearest one and pretrended to whisper to myself but i wanted them to hear me say "ammetuer delinquents"

then i went for band and all that and i was supposed to play and suddenly i froze up cuz i was used to 1on1 with my senior but now...

then i got over it

and everything went on as usual andnow i'm about to go out 4 dinner

the end

I'm hanging by a thread|6:32 PM|

Monday, May 22, 2006

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soooo, what's been going on out there in the adults world i wonder, probably all chaos and destruction...oh wait, that'll never happen cuz when kids become adults next time and realise what a horrible world their parents lived...either they'll be touched or angry...usually both..
i would be both touched and angry...

you see....i'd be angry cuz my mother had never shown me the other part of this world...the other part that revolves around money and saving your own skin(i'm speaking as if i were in the future but sort of still in this time..wateva)

i'd be touched that mt mother would not want me to see the real world when i was young and stupid and naive and i wouldn't understamd...well, those are just the most common feelings...lotsa people feel differently...

well, i just thought of something to do that doesn't require typing so that's bad cuz it doesn't satisfy my craving for typing...i have a craving for Secret Recipes mud cakes...mmmmmmmmmmmm *licks lips*

hmmm...there's nothing to type so i'll just end off this meaningless post with...
jwdbjebfhbaw4egaweydjawejywedbfbyabadabadooooooousffdgdghhudyghahfa

try to find a flinstone 'word' in there hahaha
have fun!

I'm hanging by a thread|9:45 PM|

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urmmm...okee

woke up early morning...went to school...we had contact time till about 7.30am then we went to the performing arts room and had this retreat thingy...about god and letting him take all our troubles away or something like that.....

but so sad, i'm so lonely, when we were supposed to get into groups(we-jolene and i-were not with our class...that explains it i guess)of 4-5 adn my group was a group of 2-jo and i...so sad right

oh well, life goes on...so we did this thing until 1.30 and then we were dismissed....

then we went to see ms ho, and my arch enemy-Brenda was supposed to meet her too

so the three of us waited until about 2.30pm then ms ho came...so late right

anyway so she came late and attended to christabel first and then she gathered us and talked to the three of us..

i won't tell you how the conversation went- that's confidential but i will tell you that it didn't change anything...jo and i still hate brenda and brenda still hates us. in fact, i will call brenda 'the person' so if in future i just say something like:and then the person stared at me for no reason

then you know who i'm talking about

anw, so then after that, jo made her way to guitar which she was late for it was already around 3 it started at 2 anyway then i went home and ate my lunch and i spilled abit of soup and then in almost no time ants were all around it!!

eeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!!!!
so i moved somwhere else and then i found ants on my arm and blouse(not alot but 1 or 2) so i got freaked out and quickly took a quick rinse but i had lost my appetite so i decided to take a proper shower and when i went out of the bathroom i told my grandmother that i had lost my appetite and she was gonna keep it for dinner!! ugh!! like utter and totally EEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!

but anyway, after all that grossing out i went into my bros room and played a few games checked some accounts, typed that ' i missed' post and here i am now, telling you about my day, you must think i'm crazy, as if this is my daily journal or something

but it's to show people that not everyone's lives are the same and good things and bad things happen everyday and no one's life is really that good or no one is really that lucky...

well...i've said enough and my shoulders hurt... ache more like

so i'll sign off here

:)

I'm hanging by a thread|5:47 PM|

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whoops, told ya some sundays i can't post...

any way, this one's for sunday

'today'... i woke up at about 8.22, and i just lazed around for a couple of hours until about 10am,then i started getting ready for church, i wore a black shirt with a sequined spider web and a gothic black skirt with this shiny chainy thingy, i know what you're thinking- who wears black to church??

well....i do..

so anyway, after all that, i went home and stayed there alone while my mum and all went out for lunch and i waited for mydad, he came at about 12.40pm and i went downstairs and we went to wisma atria and ate at the new 'food court', called food replublic, lame name, expensive but goooooood food!!
so we went to a japanese stall and i ate 8 crabtick sushis and a whole 'cup' of chawanmushi(i dunno how to spell it)!!!!!!!!!!!

i don't usually have a big appetite

so after that, we walked over to lido to check out what movies were showing..in the end we watched 'over the hedge' damn funny man

but when my dad went to buy tix, it was already 2.20 and it started at 2.30 so was getting frantic, luckily we made it time and i drank ribena and ate a big Crunchie bar...mmmmmmmmmmmm, my second fav chocolate.but still gooooood...

then we went out to chill at some weird place and saw two people arguing in some other language... i think phillipino...not sure....anyway, and i heard 'b****' and 'f*** you' and all that, then it went on and more or less everybody was staring...

but i just took out a mag and read......

after that...oh wait....during that, there was this 'superband' thing...(i'll show you in my next post probably)...they were on this huge bus and there was alot of noise and people were going berserk...i would've if i'd known what it was all about, i'm not a chinese music kinda person...in fact, i'm anti-chinese-music but i don't hate people who like chinese music though

anw, then we went somewhere, someplace, can't really remember, then we went to a hawker cntr and ate satay and fried carrot cake, oh and coconuts...yummmm...except i'm not fond of the hawker cntr evironment...urgh

then we got home and blahblahblah...

I'm hanging by a thread|5:24 PM|

Saturday, May 20, 2006

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happy saturday!
haha

woke up at 7am this morning to get to novena by 8 for flag day...we were doing something like....the antional arthritis foundation...poor ppl have inflammation of the limbs....so i donated too

we first went to tp interchange, alot of ppl either donated already, don't want to donate or WOULD LOVE TO DONATE...
haha

then we set off somewhere else...novena itself..we were roaming somewhere(i'm not quite sure where) trying to get donations as people pass by

sadsadsad

but...we relocated to outside novena church, we weren't exactly in the church grounds, we were directly outside the gate or something like that...we got lots and lots of donations!!
may GOD bless them all, all who donated that is...haha

it ended at 1, my mum picked me up and we drove to amk library, but we had lunch at the 'hawker center' nearby, i bought sushi from ntuc or cold storage or wahtever and ate at that 'hawker center', my mum bought noodles from there...then this huge ant-fly came and crawled under my mum's tray of food, then she swiped it away, not long after, this even hugerer bug came flying in, almost landing in my plastic bag of sushi(luckily didn't) so i screamed and leaped outta my seat, my mum just quickly got out of her seat and took my plastic bag and went to that little 'store' in the library and i ate while my mum went to browse, when i was done, i went upstairs to search for a book on the library's computer.

i found where the book i wanted was but when my mum and i looked, it wasn't there, she said it always happens, so as she went to browse somemore, i searched for other books on the com, NOTHING was what i found...a whole hour passed, it was 3.15pm and it was time to leave, so my mum and i got out of the library and headed straight to catechism, in my school uniform...

but i didn't really care, when i look back at today... i still don't care..

anyway, so we had catechism and blah blah

after we reached home, i washed up, changed, ate my dinner and watched a movie at the same time( au pair was it's title) then i went straight to the com, did my stuff and here i am now...

oh and if any day, nothing different or exciting or worth-telling happened, then i will either just talk rubbish or not post at all...
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ok, i gotta go get some shut eye, not that i'm a goodygoody, or a nerd or any of that, but two late nights in a row and i'm bound to get sick, its in the genes so i gotta make up for by sleepin' at 9.30 but i'll up and ready for hyperness tomorrow for sure but on sundays there's no guarantee that i'll post, too much stuff goin' on.

ohohohohoh, i gotta go, really, =)

I'm hanging by a thread|9:15 PM|

Friday, May 19, 2006

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aaaaaaaaaaaaah.....i got the rest of my results today.... =(
as you can tell from my not-smiley face, they aren't that good.........

well, for science, i barely passed, a 49 but my teacher gave EVERYONE 3 more marks out of pity, lucky me, i was one of those who passed because of that.....

wellllll, i'm still confused about my history, BIG "?????" question marks...

like, anyway, i passed my math, 79.....it's at least an A, good for me then...

so overall, these are my results..

english-66.5
math-79
chinese-33
science-49-52
history-???
geography-58
literature- i can't quite recall...

and there you are...

oh, and i'd like to say

MY MATH SCHOOL TEACHER SUCKS ASS MAN
SHE CAN'T TEACH TO SAVE HER LIFE
PLUS SHE NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT ME AND I HATE HER FOR THAT BUT I HATED HER FROM THE DAY I SAW HER SO THAT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER...I COULD DO WELL BECAUSE OF MY TUITION TEACHER, SHE TAUGHT WELL AND WAS IN AN ACTUAL COMPANY!! NOW THAT TEACHER HAS TEACHING SKILLS, JUST LIKE MY ENGLISH TEACHER, BUT MY SCHOOL MATH TEACHER WAS A TRAINEE AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW THE HELL SHE PASSED THE TEST BUT SHE BECAME AN ACTUAL TEACHER IN THE END...

i hate ms lu, i love ai ling...

apparently, my whole class likes ms lu axcept my best friend and i...
sad for her, but good riddance to ms lu being our math teacher because otherwise, i bet we'd all drop to normal tech standard if it were based on only math and without tuition or self study...

oh, and you know what else i realised??
she wears the same clothes almost everyday...
that dum weirdo

i really still hate her

i'm not a boy...they are 'outta sight, outta mind... no offence to ya'll guys out there.

I'm hanging by a thread|8:59 PM|

Thursday, May 18, 2006

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today started like any other morning...
then suddenly a tidal wave came out of nowher and almost drowned the whole bus...

haha
obviously not

okay...i was in the bus, reading 'a child called "it"' about a child's courage to survive...sad story but becomes triumphant towards the end...

anyway, so that was like any ordinary day...then when i got to school, i heard my classmates talking about checking our papers today, then i remembered...

so the assembly song came and blahblahblah

we were gonna check english, geography and...*gulp*...chinese!!!

my mind raced..."diediedie" was all i could think of...then a teacher entered the classroom and i broke out of my dramatic trance of some sort and we started checking our paper...i passed with a 38/65 and when converted, 58/100...how sad but how great is the lord, i passed...

then came the most dreadful news of the day....ENGLISH...
now, it's not that i'm very bad in english, my handwriting ain't atrocious either and i was actually quite excited about getting my results, then i did and i wished i hadn't been so happy earlier on...i'm usually very good in english but i guess the letter writing and compo content was my downfall..

but still, i passed...66.5 upon a hundred, to me (and my naggy grandmother) that would be considered a fail, good english runs in my family....

i quote" it is well below your ability, you should be getting at least a 78 or more!!oh, this is really disappointing shann." my grandmother can come up with nothing but negative comments that she thinks will push me to prove her wrong...well, she IS wrong, but in the part that her negative comments will 'motivate' me somehow(which they won't)...what a stupid idea...

anyway, my next result would probably be the worst emotional scar for most people but my english was the worst...chinese...i'll just cut to the chase....33/140

i know i know, PATHETIC you must all be thinkin'....but i've always done this badly for chinese, which is how i got into N(A), if i had passed, i would be very happy in express right now...

my bro was never in normal, but still, he told me "normal stream is where you can get the best friends that are loyal and true to you" and he was right, i found my best best friend, she goes by the name jolene...but i can elaborate on what bro said in my own words, they may not be the least annoying people or the smartest or the funnest to be with, but their hearts are big and they have good intensions being your friend.

i have a near-best friend, melina, she is also in my class and a very good friend to me although i sometimes feel like the back up, the understudy when she can't find a friend or she has noone else, but sometimes..most of the time, her friendship with me seems sincere, i used the word SEEMS... jolene and my friendship also SEEMS sincere, don't know about the real truth..

i'm relly not ashamed of being in normal, but i always get the vibe that when i tell someone i'm in normal, they look down on me, like i'm stupid or like i have an attitude that's why i got into normal and couldn't make it to express...i really think the really smart people should not judge us by our results but by who we are...if one is beautiful inside and outside but isn't in express or better, let it be...if one is ugly inside and outside..now that's sad story...

i better stop, i have a friend who has a phobia of chinks of words and everyone knows it.

I'm hanging by a thread|7:12 PM|

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

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helloooooo!!!
haha, this is my first post...like...eva!!!
hmmm, what should i write...okeee, i love my big bro, i think i suck at art but most ppl seem to think otherwise...
i am a chocoholic... i love chocolate more than anyone you can get straight from the streeet.

okok

i'm kind of goth...more or less...

some one help, i can't get this italic off
nvmd

ok, i'm sort of goth, but i like colours, does that make me not goth...probably so...

there goes my first entry ever...

oh, yeah, my pic...that was long ago...i have braces now...just can't find a pic of that...when i do find one...you'll b sure to see it...

I'm hanging by a thread|7:38 PM|